i found myself exhausted today..

and i started asking myself WHY?

getting a bigger size and of course an additional weight on my body is one thing that comes first into my mind…yes, i was here on the training and all i have to do is eat, sleep, run, and eat and eat..

dont know if i really was studying. coz i have the grade i dont deserve. and i even failed on two subjects during the common module phase.

whew! im so embarassed about myself.

i dont really know if im in this training or im in vacation.

and i write this thing here because im so confuse.huh! i wish i can make it better now.im on the top 6 out of 11..waaaahhhh…so bad..how i wish i belonged to the first top 5 of the class.

i need to make it or else i feel i dont worth any penny..waaaahhh..please help me GOD…