what the heck?

me..me..me…always me….why not choose other person than me..im so loaded with me (with so many factors)….arent they are thinking? and besides i dont like the idea they want me in…i dont like to be in that position…really i dont want it…

there are lots of lady officers who have finish and have a background regarding financial matters and yet they still choose me for that position!!!and some of them claim that they are better than me…ooops why not choose them…i need a break………………………………..hey arent i deserve to focus myself on what i am now…

yes, i love it that they shed their trust on me but how about my personal life…its flattering when u know most of your senior officers recognizes what u have done  and work.. but for now… i cant work much with this… i need help…i need some advise…huh!!can i get out of this?whoah(waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah)