Dont date because you are desperate
dont marry because you are miserable
dont have kids because you think your genes are superior
dont philander because you are irresistible.
dont associate with people you cant trust
dont cheat.dont lie.dont pretend
dont dictate because you are smarter
dont demand because you are stronger
dont sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better
dont hurt your kids because loving them is harder
dont sell yourself, your family, or your ideals
dont stagnate!
dont regress
dont live in the past. time cant bring anything or anyone back
dont put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right
dont throw your life away on absolutely Mr wrong because you biologal clock is tickling.
learn a new skill
find a new friend
start a new career.
sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some lifes more hasty decisions.
to terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless
to feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy
to fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy
dont bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
to make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be
simplify your life.take away the clutter
get rid of destructive elements:abusive friends,nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons
dont abandon your responsibilities but dont overdose on duty.
dont live life recklessly without thought and feelings for your family
be true to yourself
dont commit when you are not ready
dont keep others waiting needlessly
go on that trip.dont postpone it
say those words.dont let the moment pass
do waht you have to, even at societys scom.
write poetry.love deeply.walk barefoot.dance with wild abandon.
cry at the movies.
take care of yourself.dont wait for someone to take care of you.
you light up your life.you drive yourself to your destination
no  one completes you - except YOU
it isnt true that life does not get easier with age.
it only gets more challenging
dont be afraid. dont lose your capacity to love
pursue your passions
live your dreams.dont lose faith in God
dont grow old. just grow YOU!
when you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back.
your time is your life.that is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
relationships take time and effort,and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but not much we give of ourselves.

what the heck?

me..me..me…always me….why not choose other person than me..im so loaded with me (with so many factors)….arent they are thinking? and besides i dont like the idea they want me in…i dont like to be in that position…really i dont want it…

there are lots of lady officers who have finish and have a background regarding financial matters and yet they still choose me for that position!!!and some of them claim that they are better than me…ooops why not choose them…i need a break………………………………..hey arent i deserve to focus myself on what i am now…

yes, i love it that they shed their trust on me but how about my personal life…its flattering when u know most of your senior officers recognizes what u have done  and work.. but for now… i cant work much with this… i need help…i need some advise…huh!!can i get out of this?whoah(waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah)

it was on the 13th february when he arrived… almost 3 weeks of being together at a fast pace. i have’nt notice it was only 25 days when we’ve been together.

yes, 25 days of seeing each other everyday…eating dinner together and enjoying much of it. whoah!

i havent got the guts to have a passes or leave coz there are bunch of workload that comes my way and i havent figure out what i have to do then..(adding the investigation that affects me much..yeah really it was) but over and above it i enjoy being with him… and i will miss him…(oh my….am i?)hahahaha

being together everyday after office hours change a lot in me…i have figure out what was in me when im with him… and guess what…i’ve change!!!a big CHANGE as in. i got a bigger tummy because of the boodles i intake…i have so much fun eating (fun coz there is someone to pay the bills) hahahaha.. thats how im bad. well, this change makes me feel sick because i dont look fine with my clothes now..looks like i dont see me much…i see a piggy..hahahahaha

feb 14 - the valentines day was not just our night but we have a dinner date with mrs zamuranos and a videoke time with jaja and eve which we enjoy much.
feb 15 - is at butuan attend wengs wedding
feb 16 is a dinner at shabu shabu and first visit at their house
feb 17 is a dinner at the office and he gave me a ring
feb 18 is a dinner with me and him after the sentara spa session
feb 19 dinner with luz, tala, and julie at chowking and bigbys

feb 20 is a dinner at  the side of the hospital
feb 21 is a dinner at bagong lipunan
feb 22 is a dinner at vegetarian restaurant
feb 23 play golf with him and went on marketing at robinsons
feb 24 breakfast in foq and dinner at the barn
feb 25 dinner at the office
feb 26 play badminton at westside and dinner at jarbs
feb 27 a dinner and a footspa session
feb 28 is a dinner with jaja and tala and watching movie (mybig love)hehehe
feb 29 is a dinner in night cafe with G7 family and videoke escapade until 2am
mar 1 is visiting divine mercy at el salvador with togs and viador
mar 2 is in butuan at 402bde and a church at rgr
mar 3 is lunch at golf club
mar 4 is dinner with tala
mar 5 is dinner with viador and master
mar 6 is dinner with tala, julie and fabros after a badminton session
mar 7 is a dinner at their home
mar 8 is a dinner at nyt cafe
mar 9 is a dinner at their home after spa, movie. early church at st ignatius

i find lesson on this…first, even if u dont love the person and when he shows u how good he was u will fall for him…next, u will try hard to cook just to please his stomach and afraid what will be his comment after tasting a bit of it…its hard to say goodbye when the person have a value in your life and you’ll gonna miss the time when you’re together..and i see it in his eyes…yes, i was looking at his eyes when i see a teary eye on him but he didnt let it go until he walked home and tell it to me by text. i was touched but i dont want to feel it. i was numb.

now he was out again in my life.. im still numb..or really im so much like a real stone at heart and it doesnt breath..hahahaha..well of course i am alive…

am i really on this or i pretend not but im in?but im sure i’ll gonna miss him so much.