i felt im lost…im abnormal

im lost in a matter of a feeling that i was lost or just confuse of what im going to do…
i havent figured out what would i do with my additional workload…

for 6 days im in the adjustment period…i was confuse how to make my schedule fit for me..at least to be back to normal…i cant get out of it unless im finished…thats what i was and so i was here..full of workloads…yes i am…

now i have felt what it was to be on it again.see….i was the admin officer and at the same time the operation officer of our office.that was my primary position since 2006…i was content and have time for my masteral…last year i was appointed as disbursing officer and tell to myself i can do it really quite well…and now i was appointed again as the golf club manager effective 01 february….

oh wow!!! that was my first reaction…i was in oh reaction because it means another workload and time management plus the people that i have to cater. it includes the upper and lower class of the society (the golfers, caddies and the umbrella girl plus the servicemen and women under me)so its really an OH…wow! because this is really hilarious. yes it excite me to be one of the club manager and as a first lady officer to be in charge of that talk of the town organization.but well…my former boss says that i have no choice…i was the one chosen for the position. so i was here..

i accept and now im in the adjustment period. i feel lazy.yes i am…see…for 3 days i havent got a good and fix schedule.and as usual i feel lazy…and lost..that was i felt today…and it wasnt me…its not normal for me…i feel im ——blank…i need to fix it…i dont want to be lost in space.

its really get me hanging…i wish i could fix it  at the soonest time.i really need it.im thinking of this schedule…
monday
            6-7am is golf club visit
                730h - 8pm office
tuesday
            5-6am - jog
              8am-1pm - office
            2-5pm - golf
              6-8pm - badminton
wednesday      
              5-7am - golf
              8am-8pm - office
thursday
              6-7 - gardening
              8am - 1pm - office
            2-5pm - golf
              6-8pm - badminton
friday
             5-6 - jog
             6-7 - golf
             8am - 8pm - office
saturday
            6-7am - gardening
            8am - 12nn - office
            3pm - 6pm - golf
sunday
            6-8am - mass
            8-12nn - office
            1-5pm - golf

wish i could do this or is it proper to say i have to do this….well…goodluck for me