hooop!

yes i  came from vacation…and its good to be back i hope…
theres a lot of paper works to catch up and im set for that… ………or its just not my day…but i guess it was…
i begin the week with a smile and i attended the flag raising with the 4 rounds pass-in- review with my new shine combat shoesss! whoah!theres nothing to worry coz im at this profession…
of course, i did my best and my platoon dont get any bad comments from the too loud and noisy upperclass and im thankful for that. im too happy about the performance of the platoon….and i guess thats the start would be until the end of the day for me.
there were bulks of paper to read and a crowded table to arrange and organize so i left my mind working to do it. and i’ve finish doing it..but giving me a task to brief without any reading is a big NNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOO to me. but the boss wants me to do it and leaving me behind —d r a i n— what are u suposed to expect on me who came from vacation and rushing up things early in the morning and then whatt? let me do the thing that u are responsible with…. thats craziness…of course i cant do nothing about it…im still a junior no matter what…i have to obey and obey…we dont have the capacity to ignore the upperclass… but this boss is real crazy he doesnt want to hear opinions of others thats why he work as if he really knows everything about in the service..and then came here…he put me in a mess…gosh!!! i want to melt down….even the next ranking on him doesnt know what to do!!! this is really crazy..thats why im so afraid having a vacation…i sense it that there might be something bad that will happen when i came back and it does….right unto my face!!this is shameful and oh so may i say hilarious….its a verdict…
this is the prize of non cooperation and uncoordinated work and slap on my face right in the middle of the people….it sucks!!!yes it sucks and knowing the funds that i intend for payment for a credit are all on his pocket and didnt even mention about it at time before he left makes me feel like im an idiot.im responsible for the funds and he dont even care how it would mess me up!!thats really a terrible thing…

i may say it gets me down..yes, get me so low morale because of it and i said to myself i have to give up on this..either change my office or change my unit..after all im already serve 5years and half here but thinking the personnel i will left makes my heart more hurt. because i knew im the only one they look up to. they work because they knew i was there to support them when the big boss get crazy…ohhh, i hate it but i have to stay more..i have to accept that everything that you want wont come into reality as you would like it to be…there is really something terrible that conjoin the good things u have in life and i got it in here….so be patient and accept it…there will come a time that i can be free from this…whew!!!!its a crushed world