Letter..explain it on 24 hours…..shame. monday morning

oh yeah..i feel this specially with the lady that i have help. i open my arms to help her but now shes doing things that i dont like and when the time that i would confront her she always nag me and tells me that i am a burden to her….ooops, doesnt she thinks that shes a burden on me too.
we dont have any relationship but i keep her company coz i want to help her.
i dont want people to praise me in helping her but shes going too far.
first she was too demanding and i cant keep it. she was to nagger and drinks/smoke alot. shes a bad influence but i presume i could not be like her. and i stand on my own.
this is a big shit that happens to me after all i’ve done.
i was in this kind of thinking becoz of what she has done to me.
of course she knows that i dont have money to pay her housekeeping for me.
she told me in our agreement that i dont have to pay her. while with me, she will do house chores without payment as long as she can sleep and eat. and i dont think i make her hungry or something. my budget was a mess since she came on me but i make it on so we can survive.
but with the things thats shes doing on me, i dont think i have to continue it. i want to help but not so demanding like her.
on the other side i ask myself - is there anything wrong that i have done to her? i just show her who i am and what i have. i am not as rich with my companion coz i live alone and she knows it. everything is plan when it comes to budgetting and all the stuffs i do.
nagging her is just to remind her that she had met my limitations on her.
then i thought she would go away from me when the post commander ordered me to let her out but she was still there. and the worst of all, she tells me that i am a big burden to her. thats what a big mistake of her. another one big mistake and i will get her out my system. i would not care where she would go and what she would do. im enough of her things done on me. i want to help to the people who are good and get a way to cope up with the people around her especially those who have help her.
in the same way, i pray that i cant hurt her feelings when shes gone. im looking forward to tell her everything that she have done to me - that is making me sick.
in other way, i would not dare to help again with that kind of attitude. God give me some guidance with this…huh!