hay… my boss is going out. yes we have this turn over of office by february and again i have the new boss… anyway thats how the army life has to offer.

its the first time that my boss will go ahead of me because i was always out when turn over comes but now i will be left alone. and i was here. how i wish i am on vacation so i wont feel the sadness.anyway….i have to be what a matured lady officer could be and will continuously work on the way i worked with Sir Isleta with Sir Sinogba.

huh! i hope i can do it properly, with great pride with myself and of course with the cooperation of my personnel. with these i wish i can do everything with the help of God.

so keep working…proper, good and honest. keep it up lady!

Its 2007… yes it is…and i’ve never planned things ahead. yes its true.im just here and havent planned any for myself. i dont know why but i enjoy being me right now. somehow i reminisce the days when i was too occupied with things that on my way and the worst of it is…i havent notice that i dont enjoy the world i am in. yes, i felt i was in a cage before and cant fly where i want to be..but now i realize i cant fly wherever i want to, i can and i dot it right now.huh!

maybe its the best time to free things out of my mind…freed all the things that i have been carrying on…might it be spiritual, emotional and  physical.i have to let go  of all those things. so i can move freely…freewilly…..

oh i loved this kind of thing i am in. enjoying evry bit that it shuttered upon me. what more can i ask for? i have plants and fighther to take care of everytime i wake up in the morning.. i have this friendster to update and tell about my story of the day whenever i felt to. i have my job that i’ve been dreaming of and im too lucky to know that i became one of it. yes….this is was i wanted all along.. with mother and father speaking of me whenever they got communication but i know that fact that we can be a whole family whatever what happened.. i can sacrifice myself coz im their only child unlike my half brothers and half sisters,they all need the guidane of my father and mother. yes, im happy to be like this. happy to have a life that i could call my own. my world…

hope i wont forget everything that i want to be…to balance all things in life.sports, spiritual, emotional, physical, health, learning and of course love…i enjoy this things around me so i am too eloquent to be so take care of this and i pray that God would always guide me whatever i am into. be it good or bad….i knew that God is always with me. everyhting would be fine because i have my guide above…

i love the people around me and want to be a part of their life which i could help them some of the things that i have. hope so.hey, money is not a bit of inclusure here. i got a little money for the meantime and of course my bestfriend knew that because we have the same experience. yes…and we are in the state of being thrifty for evrything just to have what we have now in life…yes, its our dream of having it and with our being thrifty and saving too much we got it! yes at last a dream tihat we have but we gor it! we got it and somehow t this point of time help us to cope things up especially on our financial matters.oh i miss my bestfriend, she was ust too busy right now, of course who would not be busy if u are getting married anyway!hehehehe. bestfriend take good care always, i knew its what you always wantd in life to have a family and with the help of God it will be showered unto u.

hey dont ever think of mine.im fine theres no worry about me..i just enoy my life now. something that i havent done for the past  years. somethings that i have been missed. something that i want to enjoy and be comfortable for what i have.

dont think that i hated man for that eason t\but i dont felt to commit right now. i am enjoying here with myself. enjoying and relaxing. this is what i want.to enjoy evry bit of the day. with nothing to worry about.

maybe its FREEDOM i seek when i happen to enter a relationship. i dont think its been a selfish at if u want to have freedom since i was accustomed with that matter since childhood. im free with the rules  and strictness of parents. but did u know that i was also a victim of child abuse?  yes i was…but i dont think that i have to live with the silhouette of those bad times. thats why i tried to be different with other victims.

i aimed high for myself. i dreamed BIG. and i get it. thats why i believe that the persons ability  doesn’t depend on his/her family background but on how he/she survived on the aspects of life.its how he dreamed. its how he make things work. and everyone can do it because i did it! yes! i did it with my own self.and im very thankful to all the people whom i’ve met and with one or another way have help me  make my dreams came true. thanks as always. i wont forget  everything about what u have done to me. of course i wont forget those things i am on that ladder. when i felt down someone carried my way so i can catch up.and thanks a lot. coz i know you love me as i am and u all knew who i am. i am an open story to all, and i dont bother to tell everyone that i came from a broken family. my father got his own and mother does too. i cant live without my cousins who baby sit on me while everything for my parents was a zigzag. thanks for the priest that have taken care of me when mother was away in the market. he always told me that story whenever i went to the convnet where he serves. and here it goes… whenever they would eat on the long table i was in the top of the table besides the fruits, then one time my mother was away for errand i pooh on the table where all the priest, nuns and sacristians eat. of course they wont beat me or scold coz i was then a one older… so they just go on eating and pretends that theres nothing happened. after they eat the priest would took out my pooh and let me play on the water in the pail..of which i am in…they keeps on laughing at me because i ws grown up already. if only i knew that, of course i wont do it…hahaha!then one time i was awake when mother was going out so i make run for mother but i cant go after her because the priest had alredy put dead ockroaches on the front of the stair so i cant get out…and he thinks im still afraid of that insect…ouch! im not…i study entomoly and i have experienced that bullshit roaches that  frightens me..hehehe! the priest taught me how to play guitar and piano and i love it doing till now. hes the one who also taught me to plant.and of course i have it on mind.

my distant relative who i called LOLA always acompanied me to church when i was in the elementary. and guess what? i was awake at 4am just to be prepare for first mass.i remembered when i was not awake and she gets up earlier than me she would sprinkler water on my face so i could wake up…huh! yes its happened to me but im thankfil that this people taught me things that mother and father havent done for me and yet i happened to experienced it. she was speaking spanish coz  she was from spain but i only remembered the word "stupido" and "tunto" thats the word she would always says when i have done wrong. i was out of the house only when its school time and at 6pm we have the black rosary. i have to study lessons before i went to bed. everthing was monitored. but i love being my Lola specially when go out in the market on sundays coz she buys me new clothes. the terno thing..hehehe. and i love the spanish bread with lomi every week end…

yes, i am reminiscing things about me and im sorry that i have shared it here.i am just too happy to note that this people makes me of what i am now.thanks a lot. so much…i am here.and im proud to be myself because tthe people around me made me. and may this year a happy year for me…enjoying life at it best….hope everything would be fine to all us…thanks you too for i met u.mwuah!